Have you ever had anxiety and wonder how you will get through the day?…
When anxiety becomes very intense for periods of time and then it wanes, you wonder how can that be? What causes it to be intense sometimes and disappear others times. I believe some forms of anxiety are because we are incredibly psychic/empathic and we have lost the ability to function effectively in a world that is overloaded with stimuli. There are many different therapies out there for managing your anxiety, especially when it interrupts your life to the detriment of your physical health. I have accessed those mainstream and alternate therapies since my 20’s, with much success. Neither is better than the other and I think they perfectly compliment each other. This is my story about anxiety and how I have managed it over the years.
My first life - the 80’s…
During my early to mid twenties I experienced some of the worse anxiety I have ever known. It was the 80’s and nobody talked much about mental health back then. It affected my whole life and left me physically crippled with fear for about 2 years.
I had something special deep in my Soul…
I wanted to fight for myself! And a deep sense of “this is not what my life is meant to be!”. In those days my psychic abilities were at their most basic level, that is instinct. So I fought, and I had a win, of sorts. I did operate on a reactionary level without reflecting on what this action, or the next, would bring to me. This is how instinct is used. You react. Mostly it works, but ilife feels like a pinball game and you are being bounced from one drama to the next, sometimes without a breath! For so many years we live like this. Having said that, my instincts directed me to the perfect counsellor, and with that I began the healing process. I began the lessons of Self Awareness and learning to hone my intuition. Although, I had no idea this was happening at the time.
So how come I can’t get my messages?….
Well, it all relates to how you listen for those messages. In those early days, in order to stop the crippling panic attacks, I had to listen/feel the subtle physical changes that meant another attack was coming. Once I was able to do this I developed tools to cut them off at the pass. Something I hadn’t considered until I reflected on it was that my body is the messenger here. When it comes to intuition, it’s not the loud, confusing voices in my head, it is the subtle language of the body.
You can replace your instinctive reactions with meaningful intuitive choices, really!…
By tuning in to your body’s subtle shifts and changes you too can begin to use your intuition and find decision making meaningful. Intuition is honing the brow chakra, or third eye. This is where we decide if our ideas, dreams, decisions and thoughts are fantasy or grounded. I am going to state this again - your thoughts are not your intuition. Your thoughts can come from a place of fear as well as wisdom so to rely on them solely tends to cloud the issue.
Over the years I found these activities to be quite useful.
Is there a bigger picture here?…..
How can you reconcile the position you are in at the moment if nothing feels right and no matter what you perceive to be the issue you are still moving slowly, backwards or not at all? If you’re
in this position right now, let me reassure is not always a bad thing. I know it feels frustrating but the devil is in the detail here.
When I say detail…
All the moments in your life, the signposts along the way, have a deeper meaning. Our first instinct is to search for that deeper meaning. You’re going to get stuck and feel frustrated if you go looking. Let me let you in on a secret, if you can’t find the meaning immediately then it’s not time to know. Your insights will only emerge once the self work is done. So chasing the “reason” is not going to make one bit of difference and creates suffering where there is no need.
So what difference would it make if I did know the reason now?…
Change takes energy, motivation and courage. We need to be able to trust ourselves and working through a life puzzle provides you with life skills and resilience to build that trust. KNOWING the reason can make you lazy because it’s easier to shelve “I’ll get back to that later”. UNDERSTANDING the meaning goes deeper into the Soul and gives you personal power. And who doesn’t want to unlock that power.
We all want life to be easier, don’t we?…..
How you embrace change is a personal choice. Being in that moment, then the next moment, that is where true power lies. In these moments you can tune into your SELF, you can actually feel the calm. You can take that calm and make it your reality. Our version reality is what we perceive of our material world and the creation of that reality is how we rationalise that information, the assumptions we make. If your past conditioning is talking to you and making you feel uncomfortable then your reality is ready for a change.
I feel out of place, like I don’t belong here….
Want life to be better? Your past is probably pulling you backwards. It’s time to take a look at your beliefs. Have you outgrown them? Becoming self aware means you no longer act on instinct, you act on intuition. That is true personal power. It’s called choice.
Some things to ponder…
“Let life happen”. Stop analysing every detail looking for meaning. If you don’t get it straight away then you don’t have all the information yet. Just get on with the task at hand. The world of Spirit that guides and loves us will give you the heads up when it’s time to act.
“Sometimes it’s not about you”. Often times our world can influence our reactions and emotions. Foster self awareness. Knowing yourself puts you in a better position to know others.
“You perceive what you believe”. A gentle nudge or a full on push will shove you out of any tunnel vision. Just roll with it and laugh. Humour is the best remedy.
The power you think you have is only a tiny fraction of what is available. The power of the spirit world runs through you all the time. Take time out to learn how to tap into this power.
Mind your own business. Use your objectivity when something doesn’t feel right. Be judgemental, by all means, it’s a useful tool. Persecution based on that judgement is not cool. Be discerning.
You’ve got to be able to laugh at yourself. Give yourself a break. This moment, this moment, this moment. They are the only things that matter. Find the fun, it makes the journey so much easier.
Remember, perception is the result of past conditioning. How you were raised, what you were taught in school. It’s not wholly negative or wholly positive. You will find that the most profound experiences which have been kept as a memory, form your current perception of the world you live in now. Those uncomfortable feelings are a message that something we considered “right” needs to be challenged if we want to make real changes for the better.
The best part of self awareness…NOW YOU GET TO CHOOSE
I am ALWAYS working on my self awareness.
Self Awareness is the only thing that reveals the power of Spirit within.
My next life….
I’ve had many incarnations this lifetime. Life is circles within circles, just like the journey of The Fool in the Tarot and the stories of the suits of the Minor Arcana. I’d like to share with you the wonderful story of how I ended up travelling and how keeping focused on your dreams does actually work.
It was 2002 and I was working at a festival with a friend, doing readings and loving the vibe of the music around me. It was the very first time I had put myself out in a public place to do readings. Sure, I’d done plenty at home and within my circle of friends but this was the next stage of committing to the work of Spirit. I had a full time job at the time, family responsibilities and doing readings, healings and meditation classes were the things that kept me in touch with my Spirit Nature. I loved it!! After some initial nerves I was right into the swing of it. It was this weekend that showed me the power of healing you can bring with readings and connecting with people in a wider community. I decided on that very weekend that I when I retired I would get a campervan, travel the country, follow the music festivals and take my show (readings and healings) on the road. It was one of those bliss moments you never forget. When the power of the spirit world connects with your heart on a cellular level and you just know your true purpose. I’ve had many of those moments along the way and they have never steered me wrong.
But I was a long way from retirement….
And I had a family to look after. I didn’t abandon the dream, I knew one day it would be a reality. What happened from that day on was that every decision I made was based on that outcome, I just didn’t know at the time.
A lot of life happened in the mean time, some great, some not so great and I had nearly forgotten the dream. I was at one of the lowest parts of my life just recently and that dream came back to me, at just the right time. Spirit gave me a nudge, it was time to put this plan into place.
Talk about creating your reality….
The thing with insights and dreams and such is they require action and choices at the right time. Sure there is fear but if you listen with your heart, fear will recede and faith will propel you forward. It was exactly the right time to begin making plans to travel but where did I start. So many paths to follow, so many things to consider. I did tie myself in knots wanting to get it right, as you do. So I began to try to control.
Guess what happens when you try to control your dreams….
You get shut down, you get knocked over, you get stuck. I like to think that these days I’m better at getting out of my own way but I still try to control the narrative to some degree. So, I paused, took a breath and I stopped the struggle. I waited for the opportunities. Sometimes it’s not about forcing an issue, more that you are ready for the opportunities. The power of spirit gets you ready to step through the door when the opportunity arrives, with no fear. That is called life, that is why self awareness is so important.
Getting out of your own way…
In the end, I found the campervan of my dreams, I live the life I’ve always dreamed of and the bonus (yes, often when you surrender to the power of spirit there is a bonus) I met someone to travel with. I am having adventures I would never have been able to do on my own and I am living beyond what I ever could have conceived. That is the power of surrendering to spirit.
This power is available to everybody….
It’s not easy following your heart, it requires giving up what you think you know and surrendering to the flow of the Universe. It requires Self Awareness so that you can discern when and what is your TRUTH. Everybody has their own path and way of finding that path. For me, I found true purpose the minute I began to meditate, the first spiritual book I read (The Celestine Prophecies) the time I picked up my first deck of Tarot Cards (The Mythic Tarot) , the first crystal I tuned into (a beautiful clear quartz necklace), the first healing I participated in, the first (of many) teacher I listened to. I have hundreds of personal stories about how the power of spirit changed everything for me. If this way of living resonates with you then I encourage you to follow it, you won’t be disappointed.