Sometimes you just need to stop…

The last couple of years I had been struggling to find purpose, find momentum and especially keeping faith. My work life and personal life were not flowing and I really threw everything at it! The spiritual work I was so successful at felt like it was stalling but it wasn’t. I was falling, but didn’t know it. This was the beginning of the descent. 
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calm after the storm, need to meditate, need time out to reflect, the mind is overwhelmed and you need time out to reflect, restoring peace and equilibrium, a period of inactivity, putting your house in order, contemplation 
So why did it seem the tools were not working?… 
They really didn’t and I certainly began to question my understanding of my true purpose. I felt like I was being kicked out, but I wasn’t. The real healing was the discomfort I felt. Discomfort...the agitation we need to push us to make changes. This part always reminds me of how an oyster creates a pearl.
I was heading for some big life changes. Discomfort made me look within at how I could move forward. My Soul knew this and my guides facilitated this. It is never pleasant but sticking with it is definitely rewarding.
I have been using my healing practices and meditations for the past 30 years and always without fail I could pull through whatever the situation (and I have had some very traumatic experiences this lifetime). This time nothing worked. It was unsettling to say the least. In the end, all I could do was succumb.
​And that’s exactly what I did. I surrendered to the darkness…I was all in, my surrender had to be heartfelt for any change to occur. 

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In the void…
I felt like I’d lost my way. I felt like I’d lost my faith. I felt like I’d lost my purpose. I had lost hope, I felt nothing.
Throughout this special time the power of Spirit was around me, I knew they were there, I could feel them but I felt I was just not getting any traction.
Have you ever felt this way? It was a bananas time.
​While I thought that I was abandoned it seems there were other things at play, like healing and creating the new pathway I was destined to walk.
Meanwhile….
  • Time out means time to reflect. While I may not have understood the method or the destination I did take note of the messages. I was not abandoned by Spirit. The energy of the Spirit world was always around me. I saw and felt this constantly. Journalling is very good for reflection.
  • Synchronicity - I saw energy flow everywhere - right time, right place - seemingly by accident (it’s never by accident). To me this is always a sign that I am guided and loved. I never questioned or tried to work it out, I just Know that when I see a sign I’m on track. 
  • Special friends - I kept close only those that supported me and respected me - My Tribe. It’s important to find your tribe.
  • My healing and reading work, really any work that keeps you grounded - this never left me. Whether I am working or not, I am enveloped in the love and power of Spirit. 
  • I followed my intuition, not my instincts (There is a difference and I will discuss this in a future blog) - sometimes I was a little foggy but I showed myself compassion and took my time. Eventually I got the message.
  • I used the mantra of Ho’Oponono and the vibrational healing of Solfeggio toning. This kept me grounded. ​
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Voluntarily surrendering hope, Resignation, acceptance that there is nothing more you can do other than give up, Leaving a relationship and knowing that even if leaving does not solve anything you are not going back, No matter what you have sacrificed, or tried to change, things are never going to work, Abandoning your dreams, Leaving the past behind, abandoning or relinquishing hope.
​The abandonment must be heartfelt to be successful

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The end of something that has been lived out, A cycle has ended and you are on the threshold of a new cycle, Time out before the next life event, Allowing things to end, Mourning and letting go of your old life so you can enter your next life free from unfulfilled feelings, Limbo
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A sacrifice for a greater good, Time out, Time is suspended, Giving up the power of the conscious mind to gain greater knowledge of the Spirit world, Sacrifice as an act of faith, The unconscious mind, Timing is not quite right to move forward, Being held up and waiting for time to pass before you are released

I am ALWAYS working on my self awareness.
​Self Awareness is the only thing that reveals the power of Spirit within.