Working as a psychic and healer does not make me spiritual, living my faith makes me spiritual and I think one of the toughest lessons was the opening of my heart. I lived more honestly and the path towards self awareness became much easier.
The Closed Heart is not something I was aware of, not until the opening commenced. Someone once said to me the depth of grieving is in direct relation to the depth of the love one felt for the other. The depth of the pain when visiting the trauma is also equal to the magic of the opening.
In time and as is the case when you do this work, the clients I was seeing were presenting with similar stories. And again I am reminded of some wisdom a teacher once said. We do not have the same stories but we share the same emotions. While we share the same emotions the suffering is relative to the experience, there is no big or small here. As I worked with my clients I witnessed the energy of spirit healing the trauma and bring peace. However, there were some exceptions. Some clients would be having great results but in time returning with the same story from a different life event and I noticed there was an emerging pattern of behaviour.
I started to have some doubts about the methods I used so I meditated, connected to Spirit and asked the questions of my guides. In time I was shown the inner working for each Soul, what it meant for my clients and I had some insight for my own self as well (love it when that happens).
Let me preface the next part with a little explanation about my methods. When I am given insight to a particular condition it is shown to me in a way that I can relate to. This in turn allows me to give some peace of mind to my clients as I can describe it in a way that makes it relatable.
The closed heart does not know it is closed, not closed in the sense of not working, more there was a protective case surrounding it. You don’t know about this because over time you adjust your behaviour to fit the protection. When you have healed enough to feel safe enough to feel again, something will happen to activate the heart and your feelings. Those feelings can come slowly or they can spill out so quickly that it is difficult to catch your breath. It is the spill that brings people to me for guidance. I see the beauty of the spill, the perfection of the opening and the compassion for the confusion. The heart connects to love for another and the picture I see in their aura is one of an explosion. A hole where the heart chakra sits which is so destructive that it cannot be repaired. This is the beauty I see. The client is so ready for love that they must have the heart opened in such a way that they cannot close it down again. I was shown, by Spirit, that this is by design. It is difficult because in most circumstances a new relationship cannot move forward. Either or both parties are in relationships, one or both parties are still living their trauma and are not able to give their attention fully at this moment or the other party is playing hot and cold with the client and causing confusion. These examples are the most common and there are many more ways which all lead to the same place. The heart is open, the feelings are spilling over and the feelings of ecstasy and sorrow ebb and flow. It is not pleasant and I personally used to think how unfair it was (my victim at play).
The perfection is the method applied by your own soul. It is designed so that you must access your deepest wisdom to bring balance back to your life. You are kept in discomfort so you will seek the perfect way back to your higher self and thus continue your soul journey.
The compassion comes when I see you as a client you are lost in the beauty of this perfect emotion you are feeling. The first time you feel the explosion it is pure and amazing, you want that all the time but that is not possible. It is designed to bring your attention to your own needs and the generating of the power you need to live your best life and find the love that truly loves you heart and soul. It is that simple.
My work consists of helping the client understand this. They may perceive the other party as their forever person because it was this person that woke the dormant heart. Unless each person is clear to pursue the relationship, it is never destined to continue. You were brought together for this specific purpose, that is all. Once you have mastered your emotions, you will find the relationship you need to evolve as the beautiful soul you are.
So, this is what I have observed and if the above resonates, you might just be in one of these next situations…
These are some examples of situations you may find yourself in when the closed heart is activating again. The Self feels uncomfortable and constantly searches for ways to satisfy the feelings or shut them down again. Neither will happen, you learn, or should I say relearn, to love. The heart lives in it’s true power and makes choices for your souls highest good. That is the gain here.
You can experience the cycle of love and loss many times. It is not always a one off experience. In these times you gain such strong self awareness of what love is for you that your life becomes pure joy, even during the down times. The active or open heart is one of the strongest allies you can have, it is where true compassion is lived.
Past Life Regression
Tarot For Self Awareness
The Soul knows the perfect relationship you need for your growth. There are many common patterns I see with those who are experiencing this disruption and I am going to discuss some of these over the next couple of weeks.
The Sensitive Heart
Have you ever experienced that moment where you realise you are in a relationship that is going nowhere? In that moment do you move away from it and cut your losses? No, you double down and hang in there, waiting for it to get better. It never does though, does it? This I call the perfection of the sensitive heart. Your heart recognises another heart that shares your possibilities, your dreams and potential. You meet a kindred spirit. The reflection also shows you common struggles and pain. It is through this connection that you realise, in your heart, that healing of your past is possible. The relationship becomes the anchor for the Soul to expand and grow and it is glorious. We see the beauty of our future and strive with all our heart to attain that.
When the relationship has served its purpose it begins to degrade but the sensitive heart clings to the dream, the possibilities of the other heart. They can psychically sense the other heart, know what is possible, stay and wait for them to realise it too, forgive the other hearts bad behaviour and reward that bad behaviour with loving patience. All because the hearts are in constant connection. They communicate in a different language. What the sensitive heart fails to recognise, though, is the human behaviour. We are born with all this beautiful potential and the opportunities to realise them. The Soul brings us together to help each other reach that potential. If each of you use this time together for this growth, you move forward together. If only one heart grows, one must leave the other behind in order to evolve. This is heartbreaking for the sensitive heart. Most times the only way to end the suffering is to make the break.
I have experienced so much heartbreak in my own lifetime that the trauma will still rise and catch me off guard. I struggled with the concepts of how could this be good for my growth when it seems so damaging to my psyche. In the past that trauma did define me, it became my story. However, I slowly began to realise how damaging this victim behaviour is to the Soul. Once I became conscious of this behaviour I went through a process of blaming myself then blaming “the other”, angry with myself then angry with “the other” and finally I surrendered to the perfect process it was.
I see a lot of clients when there is disruption within their relationships and I must admit, in the past, I was caught in my own emotional responses. I had to be careful that they did not influence the readings and healings. I certainly felt empathy with them and it was through these sessions that I slowly began to comprehend the beauty in the process of connection and separation. It is the perfect opportunity to really know ourselves…when we are courageous enough to live in our sensitive heart. Our vulnerability becomes our greatest strength and being vulnerable is not being weak, it is being honest. You cannot experience suffering when you are living your truth so utilise your relationships to understand and accept your true self.
We do our best Soul growth within relationships. Our relationships reflect us. I am talking about all types of relationships, love, friendship, family, pets and even the one off chats with random people we meet within our day…all relationships. Relationships are the only way we can evolve our Soul. Even if it looks like you are moving backwards, attracting people with the same behaviour patterns or same personalities, you are moving forward. It’s incremental, but it is still growth. As I’ve discussed in previous blogs, we do attain the conscious awareness we need to make effective decisions for ourselves, eventually.
When it is happening it makes no sense, of course, and when I am working with them I am always looking for common triggers, responses and patterns. It is very difficult for them to be detached in the moment and that is why a Psychic Reading and Past Life Regression are perfect.
Past Life Regression
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Reincarnation is an integral part of Indian Religion and has been for thousands of years. Reincarnation
translates from Latin meaning “entering the flesh again.” It is based on the concept that the Soul continues
to exist after death and after a time re-enters life to live again on the Earth. The ways to reincarnate are
many and there are variations even within the religions that teach it. It is believed the Soul can return as a
human, animal, plant, a Spirit or even exist in another dimension separate from our own reality. Religions
such as Hinduism believes there is a Soul where Buddhism does not believe a Soul/Self exists. There are too
many variations to list here but the basic premise is that as a human we have lessons in our time here to
reach the ultimate goal where the Soul no longer has to be reborn, we return to the Source.
There are so many ways to describe Karma that it is difficult to define. There is the belief that Karma is the
result of cause and effect. If you do something good you will accumulate good Karma and if you do
something bad this will accumulate bad Karma. Another belief is that is no absolute good or bad and
therefore it is difficult to define someone as totally bad or good because we display these qualities in varying
degrees throughout our lives. Another belief states that if someone acts in a way that causes another’s
suffering but without the intent to cause suffering then Karma is non-existent. Another belief is that Karma
can be instant or played out over many lifetimes. These are just a few. The role of the belief of Karma is to
put the responsibility of action upon the individual so they may regulate their place in the afterlife.
Samsara refers to “wandering” or “cyclic change.” Because of the concept that man does not act from a place
of wholly bad or wholly good, we usually have shades of both, Samsara was introduces as a sort of Heaven
or Hell where the Soul would wait and create enough good Karma to be able to be born as human again.
Again, the meaning of Dharma is varied but my understanding of the word is similar to the meaning of the
Wheel of Fortune in the Tarot. Dharma means where something is “fixed” or “law” and to me this means
that we are never wholly downtrodden nor living in full bliss. The wheel of life must turn, it never stays still
and depending where you are on the wheel, things will always change. Change is the constant.
Life Between Lives
Sometimes we remain in the Soul state instead of reincarnating. Often when you meditate or have a vision
you would be connecting to the time you were in this disincarnate state. In this state you have direct access
to your Soul group and your reasons for incarnation during any lifetime. Also, you can receive a healing or
blessing around a certain situation.
You have not missed some mystic sign, you can communicate with your guides and your intuition is switched on 24/7. You are Spirit. You are living energy. You are a part of the natural cycle of the Earth. What happens is called life and how you react to your life is your choice, you have the power..
If you want to take back control and live your best life then begin with some Self Awareness training. If you're not sure where to start then I invite you to contact me. I have a range of modalities to assist you to find your own way and I am only too happy to assist you,
Past Life Regression Therapy
What is the “reason”?
For Self: Looking for the reason why, in yourself, is an easy way to self blame. How many hours/days have you looked and asked and soul searched for that answer only to turn your frustration inwards when nothing makes sense.
For Others: It is an excuse to shift a perceived responsibility you feel. It can also be a form of bullying, victim blaming.
Why am I so focused on solutions?
For Self: It is a way to pretend you are “doing something” about your problems. This constant search increases your anxiety and uses up your precious energy. It steals your life.
For Others: You and I are human. We have empathy and feel the distress of our loved ones. You want that discomfort to go away and can unconsciously blame the other person for making you feel like that.
How is there a cycle of distress, anxiety, self soothing and self loathing?
We are uncomfortable, we want to feel safe. There is a perception that anxiety is the enemy so we do whatever we can to suppress it. We need to rationalise everything! We are blamed when we are struggling with life and there is a fear we will be rejected if our struggle becomes a perceived problem for those around us. Lots of different circumstances bring us to the point of “Aboutism”
Where can I help myself?
Feeling anxious? Name the emotion, accept the emotion, feel the emotion. Do not attach a story or memory, just let it be an emotion. It will pass. This requires practice, patience and self awareness. You also receive the benefit of actually getting to know and truly like yourself.
Find the support that supports you during this process. Someone who just listens. If YOU don’t have an immediate insight then the timing is out, there is more to experience.
Seeking a psychic will give you your karmic contract and the energy around the situation as well as outcomes. In my experience, both personally and professionally, it very rarely ends the issue. Psychic readings are supporting the process, it does not take it away or allow you to control the out of control.
The healing and coaching I do provides the stillness you require to soothe the psyche during your personal growth process.
Sometimes, with readings and healings, there is spontaneous healing, sometimes it takes the time it takes. It is all part of your Karma, the contract you came here to fulfil.
From My Heart...
Doing healing and psychic work I always felt an obligation to provide all the answers and if I couldn’t then I was not worthy. Using broad statements like “Aboutism” is counterproductive to true healing. Life always provides the backdrop and the Soul knows the way. When you come to see me I am your support. Your answers and way always lie within. I hold you in the stillness of your Soul while you access your Wisdom. You always hold the ultimate Power of your journey. My privilege is to be in that space while you do.
You set yourself up to fail, you reset the goalposts when you are close to making things easier, you pull out an obscure memory to rationalise a decision, reaction or choice. You can use this big stick you punish yourself because you could not predict the outcome and use retrospect to shame yourself for not seeing it coming.
There is no glory in punishing yourself today for decisions you made in the past. The set of circumstances that existed in a past decision or situation do not exist and can never be replicated. If you grew up with shame or are susceptible to self criticism then you could be unconsciously using the past to stay in your comfort zone. The minute you become aware of the difference, even if you're not aware of the trigger, your comfort zone becomes your uncomfort zone and nothing will feel balanced until the bias is addressed. This video series explains the process in a fun and simple way that takes the power away from your critical self and gives it back to your creative self.
I found this list a few years ago. These are not my words and I've forgotten where I found it but I love the simple message they provide. For full autonomy over your destiny it is very important to know what your values, beliefs and boundaries are. Remember they are changeable. You are allowed to adjust as required.
This type of meditation is for relaxation and stress relief. It is a guided meditation and best for developing a creative mind.
This guided meditation of images takes the person on a journey eg. to the ocean, on a beach, forest, garden etc. The person does not need to participate in any way.
This type of meditation is passive and designed for inward looking.
MINDFULNESS MEDITATION - see body meditation on Meditation Page
This is a meditation to examine yourself. It helps you get in touch with yourself, your emotions. It is an active meditation. You are asked to experience your emotions within the meditation without pushing them away. It is best not to try to work out where the emotion came from. You allow yourself to experience it, stay with it and when it passes you will receive your insights.
To do this meditation you must focus on one thing eg. Breath, mandala, a star. If your thoughts take you away from this you just acknowledge the thoughts, let them pass and continue to focus your item. When the item disappears you will be feeling an emotion. Allow yourself to feel this until it lifts. Write about this, keep a journal.
This is an inward looking meditation, though active.
This meditation is designed to open the third eye. It is a silent meditation. You sit in silence, open your third eye/brow chakra and look for a light.. The light will grow in intensity and can change colour. This is the third eye opening.
Your sense of space may alter. You may feel you are in a large space or even a small space. This is for increasing your psychic abilities and developing your sensitivity/feelings.
This is a passive meditation. This is an inward looking meditation.
ATTUNEMENT MEDITATION - see sitting in the power on Meditation Page
This meditation is to link you with spirit. It builds an connection where both you and spirit can come together and communicate. It does not happen immediately. It is something that must be built. This meditation raises our vibration and then spirit lowers their vibration to meet ours. Attunement develops your talents, may identify your talents eg. Artist, healer, musician, medium. However these talents are only possibilities, they must still be activated. You must participate for these talents to be developed.
The signs with attunement are physical. They may be a feeling of cobwebs on the face, a sense of movement in the body, a heaviness, warmth or fast breathing (quickening). These are signs that spirit is touching your aura.
Close the eyes and imagine there is a beam of gold light coming down into the top of your head. It moves down to the solar plexus and outwards into the aura. The aura is expanded by thought and filled with the gold light. The aura is then opened at the top and expanded upwards. The connection is now made. You then look for any signs of spirit, visualisations, feelings/sensitivity/senses, hearing voices, seeing.
This is an active meditation. This is an outward looking meditation.
This millennium I have noticed that our Soul growth is being fast tracked. Our understanding of the other dimensions and the energy that powers our Soul is deeper, information is readily accessible and the ways we express our Divine light is so diverse.
So, in this new way of being, is meditation still relevant. I must admit I am very hit and miss with my regular meditation practices until the other day when I had a message directly from Spirit. It was passed on to me and I am sharing it with you.
If you would like to advance spiritually, if you would like to strengthen your intuition, if you have regular visits from Spirit or are a Sensitive/Psychic/Empath/Medium you must find a meditation circle, join with like minded souls, share your experiences and feel part of the greater power of the Spirit world. And, I cannot stress this enough, you must make a commitment to it. If that freaks you out then good, you must need it! I have heard all the reasons why you can’t make a commitment to meditation and I am here to tell you, I am not here to punish or shame you. Regular meditation is possible and life altering, just give it a go.
Here are some things I want you to consider:
In the early 2000’s when I was running meditation classes I would notice that some people would attend regular classes and then drop out suddenly because they were experiencing personal difficulty.
If only they stayed and rode out the tough times, they would have found something even better. Mostly they stayed and flourished. Whenever anyone asks how to begin their Spiritual Journey or find their Life Purpose, I say meditate.
A regular meditation practice is so vital to your Spiritual growth and Self Development. It should form the basis for any Spiritual practice.
Our awakening is definitely being fast tracked but we cannot develop in isolation. It is necessary to share our experiences, to have them normalised.
In the early days when my heart was opening to the Spirit world and I was learning a new way of being I would get messages all different ways. I didn’t fully understand what was happening to me and I sought gurus, read all the books and, most importantly, found meditation.
At the time my reason for seeking meditation was not to connect with the world of Spirit, it was to find a way to quiet the mind and relax. I thought I was there to chill out but something wonderful happened. I found a way to effectively communicate with my guides and my Soul. I didn’t know I could. I thought it was only psychics who could do this. It was life changing, and it changed big time.
My life suddenly had more depth and meaning and it made a big difference that I had someone, my meditation teacher, to help me feel normal about the changes that were happening to me and around me.
I found a peace deep in my soul that I’d never known before, and big disruption. Why disruption? Disruption comes when the lies we are telling ourselves are exposed.