This week on the road I was confronted with a dilemma, do I or don’t I...

I am not sure if I have ever shared it here but I have a disability which I have lived with since I was 19. Every once in a while I am faced with a decision about what physical discomfort I am prepared to endure in order to have a positive life affirming experience. Sometimes I must decline because the risks are too great, sometimes it is not as difficult as I expected and sometimes I give it a go and see how far I can take it. I was presented with a challenging bush walk and decided to see how I would fare. It was a little scary and there was potential for real damage but I used my intuition and made those conscious decisions step by step. As I was going along my walk I marvelled at how much I was able to achieve and reflected on the strategies I was employing. These are long term strategies I have had to use all my adult life and I use them every day in my spiritual work as well. I was so, so proud of myself, that I gave it a go and did not let my fear take over. You don’t have to have a disability to find yourself at a dead end and maybe you will recognise some parts of yourself here. So what was it that made the day so amazing....


Accepting help: Not just asking for help...accepting help. I realised that one of the hardest hurdles I had faced is not about asking for help, it was actually realising I needed help. Once I used to be so wrapped up in my idea of independence that it was not on my radar that I could even ask for help. I truly believed I had to do it all myself. It took a friend to really sit me down and explain the suffering she witnessed and how help would improve my quality of life. I was gobsmacked, I had no idea I was living so poorly. It did take some convincing and trust that I would not be ridiculed for not being “able.” It changed my life and it improved the respect I had for myself, once I understood that to believe I deserved help before it worked for me. On my walk I had help and, I asked for help whenever I needed it and, I accepted help when it was offered, with no feelings of embarrassment. That was simply because I believed I deserved this amazing experience and I was going to accept all that was on offer to achieve it. I wasn’t going to miss out!

Anxiety is my friend: I was anxious most of the time because some of the walk stretched my physical limitations and I did not want to fall over or slip. My anxiety was my watch dog and my moderator. It kept me focused on every step. I truly practiced mindfulness because every step counted. As a result I was fully immersed in the amazing contour and texture of the gorge I was travelling. I did not have much thinking time for any problems or worries. I was fully present. Thank you anxiety :)
Be creative: all my adult life I have been in training for this walk. There were some parts where I was very physically challenged and the person who was supporting me made suggestions that were very logical and sensible. I showed him my solutions which were funny to watch but worked for me. Sometimes I had to slide along on my backside, sometimes I had to take a long way around. My years of living with limitations has always paid off with my expanded creative mind. I’ve had to work my personal solutions for every day activities that most people do not have to think twice about. I’m very proud of that.

​Letting go of what others think of me: If you’re a Friends fan then you may remember the episode where Rachel snubs Phoebe because of her running style. I’m Phoebe most of the time. I move in a weird way, I make noises like tennis players sometimes to get me past a pain moment but mostly I am slow and thoughtful. I look clunky and in the past I’ve had loved ones make some disparaging remarks. Sometimes random people would be impatient and nearly knock me over trying to get past me. I laugh about it now but once upon a time it made me different and I didn’t want to be noticed like that. I have had some very embarrassing moments, some very traumatic moments and some very sad, sad moments because of my disability. I use those moments now to keep me going. I remember what has been stripped away, there is not much more to be exposed and I weigh up the option of doing nothing and missing out or having a go and maybe I will feel better about giving it a go, too bad if I look funny. Even I laugh about it now, so many silly moments....
The end result of my travels through the Karijini National Park...I won!! I did it and I didn’t get scared and run away, I problem solved and my reward was to swim in the most amazing natural water pools in a truly spiritual place. 


I consider myself fortunate these days. If I did not have this disability I would not be where I am, doing what I love. I overcame fear of rejection, I learned my value and I live my true self. If I did not have this disability I would truly be lost, I was heading that way when it struck. It has taken me years of training and determination to have the best life and times I knew was waiting for me. I eventually realised that nobody and nothing was going to swing by and fix it. I chose to make it better. I chose life. 


Do you know what happened once I made that choice.... Spirit stepped in and lifted me to even greater heights than I could imagine. That’s how I live and that is why I do what I do. My mission is to help you understand your power. When you access that power and begin to choose your own adventure, life begins. The signs and guides you are looking for make themselves known. They can only help when you are working for your highest good. You show yourself you’re worth it and it is reflected in the help you receive. You show yourself you are not worthy and that is reflected in the help you receive. The way forward is in your hands, what will you choose? 


With love, Vicki xx
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This is an outdoor walking/movement activity and takes about 20 minutes. It is best if you can leave your devices at home, make your walk tech free. Make sure you are dressed comfortably, including comfortable walking shoes.

​You are about to embark on a meditative walk to strengthen your connection to
your physical self with the physical world using your 5 senses. Sound, sight, smell, taste and touch. Let’s begin…

Before you take your first step take several slow, even deep breaths. Close your
eyes and become aware of breath inhaling and exhaling. Take your awareness, eyes still closed, to the top of your head. Feel the breeze on your face. Think about how your clothes feel on your body. Finally, take your attention down to your feet. Feel the firm ground under your feet and the weight of your shoes and socks. One more deep, even breath and open your eyes…

To prepare for your sensory walk choose the order of your 5 senses. For example
you may choose smell as your first sense. As you walk along and concentrate your attention only on the smells around you, it may be grass, flowers, cooking smells. Name the smells in your mind. Next you may choose sound. Focus you attention only on sounds. Identify the sounds in your mind…and so on. Repeat this process for the remainder of your senses.

And begin…Take a few moments for each sense before you move on to the next
one. Take your time and enjoy the waking of your senses.
At the end of your walk take note of how difference between how you felt before
this walk to how you feel afterwards. You could, if you like, keep a record of your
experiences.

This is an adaptation of an exercise from the Natureluster Program created by
Stacey Demarco The Modern Witch.

​With Love, Vicki xx
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Welcome to a demonstration of Reiki Self Healing you can do at home. Reiki is perfect for connecting to your bodies innate healing wisdom.

With love,
Vicki Haspels xx

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It is difficult to realise until it is sometimes too late how out of balance our life can get. Sometimes the only clue is illness or anxiety and by then we are way past heading it off at the pass.

It is possible to stay in touch with yourself and catch when you are heading for that fall. It is no surprise if


I tell you that anything that connects you to your physical body is the perfect way to keep in touch with the subtle message your Soul is giving you.


Honour your body and you will have perfect mind, body, soul balance. Being in touch with your body is not only about diet and exercise. Have you considered meditation.
When we meditate mindfully we connect to the ebb and flow of energy in and out of the physical body. At the beginning we might experience the physical aches and pains but when you become more practiced at it you learn to rise above this and access the higher planes and the auric bodies. It is here that you can learn to access vital energetic body changes before they manifest in the physical world. It is not a cure all, that is not for us to promise, however I can, however, guarantee an intimate connection to the subtle shifts in your physical and auric fields.
Your body is balanced when you know intuitively what it needs.
Your mind is balance when your connection to the shifts gives you control over your life.
​Your Soul is balanced because you are eternally connected to the greater power of Spirit.
Being connected to this greater power gives you the strength to walk your path and be confident in the choices you’ve made. 

​With Love, 
Vicki xx

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There is much said and written about childhood trauma, inner child work and rebirthing. We experience this trauma in two ways, the Soul Self and, the Physical World and I think it can be difficult to reconcile any childhood trauma because when we have the emotional maturity to process the event, that event is too far away to look at objectively. We’ve already created a belief system and a set of survival tools and it is frightening to let them go. In it’s destructive form the wounded child prevents us from expressing our magical child. In it’s positive sense the experiences can create resilience and compassion within us. 
I have found, in my own time as a healer and in my own life, that healing wounded child trauma is such a personal experience and no one modality is a cure all. I also understand that sometimes it takes a lifetime to reconcile. I have worked with many teachers and healers over the years, I have plumbed the depths of my own trauma and this is how I explain the process. 
Childhood trauma is stored in the base chakra. It comes from family, ancestral and DNA patterns that are repeated and passed on. We do not always take on all the ancestral behaviours however we respond to those that resonate with our personality and our Soul contracts. We cannot destroy the memory or the trauma. They are with us for life because they are embedded in our collective psyche. It is important to recognise when you are traumatising yourself, judging yourself and being generally horrible to yourself, that you are reinforcing this embedded belief. The good news is that while you cannot banish the experience you can detach and reconcile yourself from the emotions that are trapped in the body and the mind. It is simple and complex. When you deeply connect to your soul you really get to know the real you. When you are able to fully accept all the elements of your personality and become your own best friend it makes it easier to recognise when those emotions or patterns bubble up. This type of cycle is called conscious consciousness. In this state you will feel the response, recognise the response, make a conscious decision about your reaction and act accordingly. Sometimes we have a win and sometimes we have a relapse. You will thrive and regain control of your life, your emotions,  your creativity and your spark of joy for life. It is achievable and worth the effort you put in.
P.S. please remember this process may take many lifetimes. Compassion, forgiveness and gratitude are the outcomes of this process. You can’t force them they are states of being, you become them.


With love, Vicki xx

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