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I sat down to write about boundaries for my students and something wonderful happened. Every time I wrote a bit down I was pushed and extended past what I thought boundaries meant. I have written about boundaries before in previous blogs and I want to share something I had never considered previously....
We all talk about strengthening our boundaries but how do you tell when your boundaries are being compromised. What happens? I really had to think about what that means to me as a practitioner, as a teacher and personally. Firstly we need to identify what boundaries are and where they are stored in our psyche or soul. Boundaries are a part of living as a human. We choose our boundaries and we enforce those boundaries. We have been taught the boundaries we live by and we have created boundaries through lived experience. Lets keep it simple. We have two types of boundaries, lets look at what they are and how we experience them… #1 Learned boundaries Learned boundaries begin in childhood and through our lived experiences we shift and change them as we become more at ease with our world and our part in it. For example, you may have not enjoyed broccoli as a child however as your tastes changed and you became a little more adventurous in your palette you introduced it to your diet, learned how to prepare it and voila you realise that broccoli is not so bad after all. This boundary represents your values. You will feel the boundary challenge in the body. It is visceral. This is your excitement and anxiety (solar plexus), intuition (sacral chakra), soul (heart chakra) all reaching out to say things are changing. Your body is the barometer so listening to it will keep you healthy, creative and feeling in control. This is always Self Growth. My prescription: meditation to learn to listen to your body/soul. Exercise to become aware of the subtle nuances of the body. #2 Self Imposed boundaries This boundary is one of fear and in some instances trauma. This boundary is decided on by our belief system and can be somewhat more difficult to shift. An example would be where you have a phobia, superstition and outdated religious beliefs. No amount of logic, cajoling or forcing ourselves will shift your deep seated conviction that something bad will happen if you defy this self imposed boundary. This boundary is felt in the mind and can present itself as chronic anxiety (brow chakra), depression (sacral or base chakra) and rage (throat or base chakra). The self imposed boundary is the antithesis of change and expansion. When this boundary is being challenged it is difficult to identify. It presents itself as a lie and therefore sends us off on a distracting quest to frustration when nothing makes sense or is resolved. With mindful precision you can catch this challenge and master the fear. I promise it is doable and requires real dedication to your mental wellbeing. My prescription: Past Life Regression, Regular Counselling, Reiki, regular group meditation, mindfulness training. The best way to gain control of this boundary shift is to ignore the story/lie the mind wants to impose and stay with the emotion/feeling until it too disappears. No adding to the trauma by making up excuses, just be present. These boundaries will only become apparent to you when you are more than ready to move them on or strengthen (for your highest good only here) them. The stronger they affect you the stronger the change and the greater the benefit to you as a person. My personal mission has always been: if I can be my best self then that will ripple out into the universe and give strength and love to all. I can only be my best when my cup is full. Only then can I give to others. Strong, healthy boundaries give me the space to be my best self. I have lived with physical pain and personal trauma all my life and living my life as a spiritual being has been the best decision I have ever made. My spirituality gives me something to live for and I will back myself at every turn. It works, and it works well. If you are ever feeling low or not understanding when you are feeling blocked or stuck, contact me for some Soul Coaching and we will work together to make a difference in your life. With love, Vicki xx Psychic Readings Tarot Reading School Tarot Practitioner Course Reiki Master Past Life Regression Therapy Soul Coaching
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This week on the road I was confronted with a dilemma, do I or don’t I...
I am not sure if I have ever shared it here but I have a disability which I have lived with since I was 19. Every once in a while I am faced with a decision about what physical discomfort I am prepared to endure in order to have a positive life affirming experience. Sometimes I must decline because the risks are too great, sometimes it is not as difficult as I expected and sometimes I give it a go and see how far I can take it. I was presented with a challenging bush walk and decided to see how I would fare. It was a little scary and there was potential for real damage but I used my intuition and made those conscious decisions step by step. As I was going along my walk I marvelled at how much I was able to achieve and reflected on the strategies I was employing. These are long term strategies I have had to use all my adult life and I use them every day in my spiritual work as well. I was so, so proud of myself, that I gave it a go and did not let my fear take over. You don’t have to have a disability to find yourself at a dead end and maybe you will recognise some parts of yourself here. So what was it that made the day so amazing.... Accepting help: Not just asking for help...accepting help. I realised that one of the hardest hurdles I had faced is not about asking for help, it was actually realising I needed help. Once I used to be so wrapped up in my idea of independence that it was not on my radar that I could even ask for help. I truly believed I had to do it all myself. It took a friend to really sit me down and explain the suffering she witnessed and how help would improve my quality of life. I was gobsmacked, I had no idea I was living so poorly. It did take some convincing and trust that I would not be ridiculed for not being “able.” It changed my life and it improved the respect I had for myself, once I understood that to believe I deserved help before it worked for me. On my walk I had help and, I asked for help whenever I needed it and, I accepted help when it was offered, with no feelings of embarrassment. That was simply because I believed I deserved this amazing experience and I was going to accept all that was on offer to achieve it. I wasn’t going to miss out! Anxiety is my friend: I was anxious most of the time because some of the walk stretched my physical limitations and I did not want to fall over or slip. My anxiety was my watch dog and my moderator. It kept me focused on every step. I truly practiced mindfulness because every step counted. As a result I was fully immersed in the amazing contour and texture of the gorge I was travelling. I did not have much thinking time for any problems or worries. I was fully present. Thank you anxiety :) Be creative: all my adult life I have been in training for this walk. There were some parts where I was very physically challenged and the person who was supporting me made suggestions that were very logical and sensible. I showed him my solutions which were funny to watch but worked for me. Sometimes I had to slide along on my backside, sometimes I had to take a long way around. My years of living with limitations has always paid off with my expanded creative mind. I’ve had to work my personal solutions for every day activities that most people do not have to think twice about. I’m very proud of that. Letting go of what others think of me: If you’re a Friends fan then you may remember the episode where Rachel snubs Phoebe because of her running style. I’m Phoebe most of the time. I move in a weird way, I make noises like tennis players sometimes to get me past a pain moment but mostly I am slow and thoughtful. I look clunky and in the past I’ve had loved ones make some disparaging remarks. Sometimes random people would be impatient and nearly knock me over trying to get past me. I laugh about it now but once upon a time it made me different and I didn’t want to be noticed like that. I have had some very embarrassing moments, some very traumatic moments and some very sad, sad moments because of my disability. I use those moments now to keep me going. I remember what has been stripped away, there is not much more to be exposed and I weigh up the option of doing nothing and missing out or having a go and maybe I will feel better about giving it a go, too bad if I look funny. Even I laugh about it now, so many silly moments.... The end result of my travels through the Karijini National Park...I won!! I did it and I didn’t get scared and run away, I problem solved and my reward was to swim in the most amazing natural water pools in a truly spiritual place. I consider myself fortunate these days. If I did not have this disability I would not be where I am, doing what I love. I overcame fear of rejection, I learned my value and I live my true self. If I did not have this disability I would truly be lost, I was heading that way when it struck. It has taken me years of training and determination to have the best life and times I knew was waiting for me. I eventually realised that nobody and nothing was going to swing by and fix it. I chose to make it better. I chose life. Do you know what happened once I made that choice.... Spirit stepped in and lifted me to even greater heights than I could imagine. That’s how I live and that is why I do what I do. My mission is to help you understand your power. When you access that power and begin to choose your own adventure, life begins. The signs and guides you are looking for make themselves known. They can only help when you are working for your highest good. You show yourself you’re worth it and it is reflected in the help you receive. You show yourself you are not worthy and that is reflected in the help you receive. The way forward is in your hands, what will you choose? With love, Vicki xx Psychic readings Tarot readings Reiki Past Life Regression Meditation Tarot Reading School  While I have been travelling I have been experiencing a phenomenon I have not felt for a long time, an energy connection to places and areas that wants to pull me out of my body. They were once called Earth vortexes and the energy of spirits trapped in the earth realm. I was once very fearful of these feelings and overcoming that fear is part of my spiritual growth. I remember wandering in fear for many years believing I was going to be visited by spirits and that I would be taken over or hurt in some way. That is what I was being taught at the time. I have no fear now and it is because I have a strong connection to my own guidance, I refuse to let the fear of the energy overwhelm me and I no longer take another persons experience as a definitive explanation. As I walked my own path and created my personal and intimate connection with Spirit I came to understand differently. Now I welcome the energy shifts. When I lean into them they nourish and inspire me. We each experience energy in different ways and our own way of rationalising the feeling is in direct alignment of our acceptance of the energy of Spirit that works with us. I wanted to discuss this here after I visited an old settlement and felt the old stirring. I knew the memory of this place was living through the imprinted energy of the previous inhabitants. I am not triggered everywhere I go and I found this to be intriguing. I believe it was a past life experience. I connected to the energy of someone who lived here at this settlement and recognised their memory imprint left here. I believe that at this time in our history I lived in another country. The person I connected with came to Australia from this country. I can connect to this by doing a past life meditation for myself. This is something that can be learned for yourself or you can experience it while having a past life regression. The connection I had was an uplifting one because I felt happy and my heart is full, even now as I write. To have these connections, while interesting to talk about, is vital to our mind, body, soul wellbeing. I say that because it reminds us that we are not alone and there is a greater power that connects us all. This power is of unconditional love and healing. During a Past Life Regression we visit this power to connect to our Soul and during meditation we connect to this power to grow stronger. This spontaneous connection provided a well needed healing and an energy uplift. Like catching up with an old friend. Another experience I had was one where I felt out of my body. It was an odd experience and at any time I could have just left and astral travelled. This felt like universal energy, the energy of the surrounds of time and space that the universe is made up of, the particles of all matter. It is not always a pleasant body experience and not one of my favourite things to go into. I am still learning to trust the mind expansion that can happen with this. It is easy to get lost and very alluring to stay there. I have witnessed this phenomenon many times, succumbed a couple of times, but I personally find it nice to visit but not live there. I get lost in time and do not feel very grounded. The last experience I want to talk about is the connection to the timelessness of the Earth we live on. We camped at the foot of a beautiful mountain and I felt such a connection to the protective nature of this mountain that I inadvertently called it grandfather mountain. I felt the combined stability of The Emperor and The Hermit from the Tarot. I felt so safe and was happy to sink into the warm and comforting vibes I was picking up. I had a great sleep and ready for the day ahead. This energy to me is perfect for feeling grounded, connected to the environment that sustains and provides as well as the ancient and timeless wisdom stored here. I did not need to understand the message, just to be comforted was enough. Energy is energy. It is all around us and those who are sensitive or psychic will experience this regularly. Everything we experience is a reflection of the power we possess. The strength of the signal is the strength of your own divine power. You can run from it, fear it, try to control it but it will always bring you back to one place...YOU. Spirit energy, past life energy, astral energy etc is with us always. Learning to access it for your own personal and spiritual growth is the only way to feel in control and comfortable with its power, your power. If you really feel you are ready to take your self awareness to this next level I suggest joining my meditation group or find one that is focused on Spiritual growth not fear of the unknown. With Love Vicki xx Tarot Reading School Tarot Reading Meditation Crystal Reiki Soul Coaching Past Life Regression Therapy  I receive a lot of my healing and inspirational messages from my meditation practice. This past year I have noticed that old trauma has been affecting my quality of life again and now as I write, on reflection, I have been made aware of the effects for a couple of years now. This is really difficult to reflect on but I want to share some insights I gained recently.
What has changed? I have become aware of the chain of thought processes, my emotional reactions, my physical reaction and the utter hopelessness of the spiral I continually found myself in. I was in this state until very recently and it is the practice of meditation and the healing space it creates around me that has kept me sane. The effects of my trauma have always been there but knowing this does not in itself heal it. I have been down that road before and I can assure you that you cannot will it away. The extent of emotional, mental and physical pain and discomfort I felt was acute and in direct proportion to the urgency in which it was ready to be released. Ugh...not gain!! I really thought that after all these years of mind, body and spiritual balancing I had developed the exact healing prescription. I did...sort of. My way of healing my spirit was so advanced that it didn’t occur to me that I would not be ok, that I would not recover for years. It has, my friends, been a slow process and one in perfect timing for a perfect outcome. The Process It has been a slow and painful deep dive into my childhood, one I did not know was necessary. I could recall most things and believed they were in the past as the memories were not directly related to any emotional reactions I had ever experienced. When I began my adult spiritual awakening I poured my full heart and soul into my healing process because I felt the power move through me and I knew I had connected to the power of spirit within me. It is only now I understand that I was working back towards the point of origin. In my adult life I experienced physical, emotional and mental abuse from people I believed loved me the most, I contracted a debilitating illness that still affects every aspect of my life to this day and my loved ones were used as weapons against me.I truly believe this was the cause of my soul imbalances and I was determined to live my best life. I accessed healers, readers and sat in meditation circles for years. What I understood along the way was that these things in themselves are not the cure, they are the best way to access my Soul Wisdom. I did the work, I surrendered to the energy of spirit and I gained control of myself, my thoughts and my destiny. Or so I thought... Once I was working for myself as a professional reader and healer the next phase began to creep in. As I mentioned, I had a handle on how to manage the eruptions that occurred from past and present hurts. I welcomed this new phase. I always emerged stronger and more attuned to spirit. Nope, this was different. Before I knew it I was plunged into one of the darkest places I’ve ever been without any guidance. Usually there was a cause and effect situation but this dip was much more severe because the more I sunk into it the worse life got. By the time I realised I was out of my depth it was too late and there was nothing to do but wait it out. This was worse because I had nothing to link it to, nothing to blame, nothing to understand and no healing, meditating, counselling or readings touched the surface. And so I fell into a long term, debilitating depression for nearly 2 years. I thought I was done.... Vicki! Get to the point!! I’ve written about the crisis of my faith in previous blogs so I won’t give the full story here about my way back to myself. What I did have to do though was visit my childhood trauma in all it’s ugliness. I had to sit in the very real sadness (and I’m crying writing this) and actually feel the pain of those times. And so I went. **Actually, as I’m writing this I am receiving insights to this journey I’m writing about so I am going to pass the information on immediately. I had never understood why I had to endure depression when I was always a willing healing and self awareness participant. I just got the answer. The depression I experienced was so different to anything I’ve ever felt before. I wasn’t sad or crying. I felt nothing. I mean absolutely numb. I never cried once and I could not even experience an ounce of joy. Every emotion from that time was faked, it was the only way to survive. I now understand I would not have been able to visit my childhood trauma effectively if I was experiencing any emotions. Being depressed actually allowed me to do the exploratory work I needed to release the attachments to the survival responses I no longer needed to continue in my work...OMG, I am so happy!!** Anyway, I was contemplating writing this blog to showcase how my Soul Coaching worked when I realised another amazing thing. The protective measures in place, the things I thought had been programmed by others who had control of me were all mine. I created the mantras of self deprecation, people pleasing and worthlessness as a means to explain the dreadful treatment of me by others. They did not give me the words. I gave them to myself and every time I was re-traumatised I repeated my rationalisations because nothing else made sense. I repeated them until they became my truth, my shield, my protection. What occurred, dear friends, is that with this realisation I took my power back! Yes! I own the words, I can release their hold on me. I HAVE THE POWER. I always did. I wonder if this is true for all iterations of the deep programming we unconsciously repeat until the power of our soul releases us from our torment and shows us the way. The path can sometimes be ugly but worth it. Never travel it alone, there is always help. My lovely friends, I meandered through the telling of this story and it began when I was recently a passenger in a 4WD doing some off-roading. I was terrified of nothing and nothing I could tell myself would ease the fear. So, I did what I always do, I meditated on it. Not a sit down for hours meditation mind you. I let the feelings wash over me in a quiet moment and let my Soul Wisdom take care of the details. I allowed the fear to come to the surface, l went with it and the intensity eased. It really is that simple and I received relief. I don’t really care about the origins of the trauma, that is just for context. I am more interested in the process of releasing the binds that keep me in a pattern of emotional reaction that affects the quality of my life. And I do it because it works. TL:DR
With love, Vicki xx Psychic readings Tarot readings Tarot Reading School Tarot Practitioner Crystal Reiki Past Life Regression Soul Coaching Meditation This is an outdoor walking/movement activity and takes about 20 minutes. It is best if you can leave your devices at home, make your walk tech free. Make sure you are dressed comfortably, including comfortable walking shoes.
You are about to embark on a meditative walk to strengthen your connection to your physical self with the physical world using your 5 senses. Sound, sight, smell, taste and touch. Let’s begin… Before you take your first step take several slow, even deep breaths. Close your eyes and become aware of breath inhaling and exhaling. Take your awareness, eyes still closed, to the top of your head. Feel the breeze on your face. Think about how your clothes feel on your body. Finally, take your attention down to your feet. Feel the firm ground under your feet and the weight of your shoes and socks. One more deep, even breath and open your eyes… To prepare for your sensory walk choose the order of your 5 senses. For example you may choose smell as your first sense. As you walk along and concentrate your attention only on the smells around you, it may be grass, flowers, cooking smells. Name the smells in your mind. Next you may choose sound. Focus you attention only on sounds. Identify the sounds in your mind…and so on. Repeat this process for the remainder of your senses. And begin…Take a few moments for each sense before you move on to the next one. Take your time and enjoy the waking of your senses. At the end of your walk take note of how difference between how you felt before this walk to how you feel afterwards. You could, if you like, keep a record of your experiences. This is an adaptation of an exercise from the Natureluster Program created by Stacey Demarco The Modern Witch. With Love, Vicki xx Meditation Reiki Psychic Readings Tarot Practitioner Tarot Readings Tarot Reading School Past Life Regression Welcome to a demonstration of Reiki Self Healing you can do at home. Reiki is perfect for connecting to your bodies innate healing wisdom. With love,
Vicki Haspels xx Tarot Reading School Psychic Readings Reiki Master Crystal Reiki Esoteric Coaching Meditation  A little background...
Once upon a time I suffered from acute anxiety. It was debilitating, sometimes it prevented me from doing things like driving and generally making life miserable. I didn’t know I could do something about it, I thought that was life and you endure. One day I discovered meditation, then Tarot cards, then like minded people (my tribe), then I was at peace with my trauma and my anxiety became a background hum. I thought I’d conquered anxiety but what I’d done was place myself in a pretty psychic prison (I have acquired that phrase but I cannot remember who first coined it, props to you whoever you are). You see, I placed myself in a controlled environment that did not challenge me and I thrived. This, my friends, is not a bad place, nor did I do a bad thing to myself, I just created a peaceful place where I could not be reached and it was bliss. In this time I taught myself some very valuable lessons, understood my Soul Self and developed the reading, healing and teaching style I still use to this day. I honestly thought I had it nailed!! Hahaha...not even close. As is usually happens for me, life moved forward and I had another intense trauma to face. (My friends, I have had so much trauma this lifetime one health professional looked me in the eye one day and expressed surprise that I was not a balled up in the corner rocking back and forth..I’m not kidding. My first thought was, s**t how bad am I?) Anyway, I digress, where was I? Oh yes, another life challenge, and it was one of the biggest. This trauma was with me for 10 years, life was torn apart and had to be reimagined. My old friend anxiety popped up and wanted to be part of this next phase. I left the New Age part of my Spiritual Journey and entered the world of the MIND/BODY/SPIRIT holistic approach to healing. So, getting to the point... Existential Anxiety. I met a wonderful Soul/Teacher/Dear Friend at the very beginning of that time and she showed me how anxiety can be a very useful tool. I won’t dress it up, anxiety is not pleasant. Existential anxiety is something that is rampant in this modern life, we all have it. What I’ve come to accept and understand that it is not the enemy it has been made out to be. I’m not talking about the type of anxiety that is directly attributed to acute trauma, I am referring to anxiety that has no obvious origin, the feeling that comes from nowhere and our thoughts take up the reins and gallop to full blown panic. This is EXISTENTIAL ANXIETY and once you look at this type of anxiety in a different context to what you’ve been conditioned to believe you can make it work for you...yes, really! Understanding Existential Anxiety Many explanations detail the root causes are and how to treat it, all valid. I would like to break it down to simple terms. Thought number one: an anxious thought that has been triggered by an emotional reaction to external stimuli. Thought number five: you realise you are feeling anxious and attribute the cause to thought number five. Because you cannot reconcile the thought and the feeling (they are not from the same cause) you become caught in a maelstrom of cause, effect, blame, cause round and round. Note, this thought has not originated from any direct action, it is something you have “thought.” It has come from nothing substantial, it becomes an existential threat. You cannot solve an existential threat, it is wholly in your imagination. Anxiety is uncomfortable and often has a physical reaction. So you are caught up with a physical reaction to an existential threat, your mind is in turmoil and your immediate response is “fix it.” Now you are stuck. It’s Not A Bad Thing..I Promise Existential anxiety is part of your psychic ability. It really is! EA lets you know you are having a vibrational or spiritual shift. It is a handy tool, not a comfortable tool, but something you can utilise. So, when EA is shows itself here are some handy tips.
With love, Vicki xx Psychic readings Past Life Regression Tarot Reading School Reiki Crystals  The image of The Hermit is one of solitude and humility. It often evokes a sadness because the hermit looks lonely with no promise of support in the near future. Depending on how you are feeling in yourself at the moment the image does reflect an inner longing for something that does not exist.
In a positive light, The Hermit represents The Fool’s getting of wisdom. The Fool has travelled a far distance and learned much about himself and the world around him. The Fool feels empathy and compassion, is deeply connected to his Self and is able to understand his place in the world. Because of this he often feels apart from the people around him as many would not understand his wisdom. The Hermit is more than happy to be in his own space at this time. It is necessary to withdraw while you are considering where your place is in the flow of life when you have had a spiritual awakening. Your own company is soothing and your own thoughts are clear and insightful. The Hermit needs this time to decide his next path. The difference here is that The Hermit now is able to choose his own way, he sees the whole picture. Using The Hermit energy in your life assists you with meditation and takes away the fear that you need to fill your life with noise or constant stimulus. Using Hermit wisdom assists you to be comfortable with your own company, you can hear your own thoughts and acknowledge that all you have suffered has made you richer through personal experience. With Love, Vicki xx Tarot Reading School Psychic Readings Reiki Crystals Past Life Regression Spiritual Coaching  It is difficult to realise until it is sometimes too late how out of balance our life can get. Sometimes the only clue is illness or anxiety and by then we are way past heading it off at the pass. It is possible to stay in touch with yourself and catch when you are heading for that fall. It is no surprise if I tell you that anything that connects you to your physical body is the perfect way to keep in touch with the subtle message your Soul is giving you. Honour your body and you will have perfect mind, body, soul balance. Being in touch with your body is not only about diet and exercise. Have you considered meditation. When we meditate mindfully we connect to the ebb and flow of energy in and out of the physical body. At the beginning we might experience the physical aches and pains but when you become more practiced at it you learn to rise above this and access the higher planes and the auric bodies. It is here that you can learn to access vital energetic body changes before they manifest in the physical world. It is not a cure all, that is not for us to promise, however I can, however, guarantee an intimate connection to the subtle shifts in your physical and auric fields. Your body is balanced when you know intuitively what it needs. Your mind is balance when your connection to the shifts gives you control over your life. Your Soul is balanced because you are eternally connected to the greater power of Spirit. Being connected to this greater power gives you the strength to walk your path and be confident in the choices you’ve made. With Love, Vicki xx psychic readings Tarot Reading School Crystal Reiki Past Life Regression Therapy Soul rEvolution Meditation. With Love,
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