A little background...
Once upon a time I suffered from acute anxiety. It was debilitating, sometimes it prevented me from doing things like driving and generally making life miserable. I didn’t know I could do something about it, I thought that was life and you endure.
One day I discovered meditation, then Tarot cards, then like minded people (my tribe), then I was at peace with my trauma and my anxiety became a background hum. I thought I’d conquered anxiety but what I’d done was place myself in a pretty psychic prison (I have acquired that phrase but I cannot remember who first coined it, props to you whoever you are).
You see, I placed myself in a controlled environment that did not challenge me and I thrived. This, my friends, is not a bad place, nor did I do a bad thing to myself, I just created a peaceful place where I could not be reached and it was bliss. In this time I taught myself some very valuable lessons, understood my Soul Self and developed the reading, healing and teaching style I still use to this day. I honestly thought I had it nailed!! Hahaha...not even close.
As is usually happens for me, life moved forward and I had another intense trauma to face. (My friends, I have had so much trauma this lifetime one health professional looked me in the eye one day and expressed surprise that I was not a balled up in the corner rocking back and forth..I’m not kidding. My first thought was, s**t how bad am I?)
Anyway, I digress, where was I? Oh yes, another life challenge, and it was one of the biggest. This trauma was with me for 10 years, life was torn apart and had to be reimagined. My old friend anxiety popped up and wanted to be part of this next phase. I left the New Age part of my Spiritual Journey and entered the world of the MIND/BODY/SPIRIT holistic approach to healing.
So, getting to the point... Existential Anxiety. I met a wonderful Soul/Teacher/Dear Friend at the very beginning of that time and she showed me how anxiety can be a very useful tool. I won’t dress it up, anxiety is not pleasant. Existential anxiety is something that is rampant in this modern life, we all have it. What I’ve come to accept and understand that it is not the enemy it has been made out to be.
I’m not talking about the type of anxiety that is directly attributed to acute trauma, I am referring to anxiety that has no obvious origin, the feeling that comes from nowhere and our thoughts take up the reins and gallop to full blown panic.
This is EXISTENTIAL ANXIETY and once you look at this type of anxiety in a different context to what you’ve been conditioned to believe you can make it work for you...yes, really!
Understanding Existential Anxiety
Many explanations detail the root causes are and how to treat it, all valid. I would like to break it down to simple terms. Thought number one: an anxious thought that has been triggered by an emotional reaction to external stimuli. Thought number five: you realise you are feeling anxious and attribute the cause to thought number five. Because you cannot reconcile the thought and the feeling (they are not from the same cause) you become caught in a maelstrom of cause, effect, blame, cause round and round. Note, this thought has not originated from any direct action, it is something you have “thought.” It has come from nothing substantial, it becomes an existential threat. You cannot solve an existential threat, it is wholly in your imagination. Anxiety is uncomfortable and often has a physical reaction. So you are caught up with a physical reaction to an existential threat, your mind is in turmoil and your immediate response is “fix it.” Now you are stuck.
It’s Not A Bad Thing..I Promise
Existential anxiety is part of your psychic ability. It really is! EA lets you know you are having a vibrational or spiritual shift. It is a handy tool, not a comfortable tool, but something you can utilise. So, when EA is shows itself here are some handy tips.
With love, Vicki xx
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