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February 23rd, 2020

23/2/2020

Sometimes you just need to stop…

The last couple of years I had been struggling to find purpose, find momentum and especially keeping faith. My work life and personal life were not flowing and I really threw everything at it! The spiritual work I was so successful at felt like it was stalling but it wasn’t. I was falling, but didn’t know it. This was the beginning of the descent.

calm after the storm, need to meditate, need time out to reflect, the mind is overwhelmed and you need time out to reflect, restoring peace and equilibrium, a period of inactivity, putting your house in order, contemplation

So why did it seem the tools were not working?…
They really didn’t and I certainly began to question my understanding of my true purpose. I felt like I was being kicked out, but I wasn’t. The real healing was the discomfort I felt. Discomfort...the agitation we need to push us to make changes. This part always reminds me of how an oyster creates a pearl.
I was heading for some big life changes. Discomfort made me look within at how I could move forward. My Soul knew this and my guides facilitated this. It is never pleasant but sticking with it is definitely rewarding.
I have been using my healing practices and meditations for the past 30 years and always without fail I could pull through whatever the situation (and I have had some very traumatic experiences this lifetime). This time nothing worked. It was unsettling to say the least. In the end, all I could do was succumb.
And that’s exactly what I did. I surrendered to the darkness…I was all in, my surrender had to be heartfelt for any change to occur.

In the void…
I felt like I’d lost my way. I felt like I’d lost my faith. I felt like I’d lost my purpose. I had lost hope, I felt nothing.
Throughout this special time the power of Spirit was around me, I knew they were there, I could feel them but I felt I was just not getting any traction.
Have you ever felt this way? It was a bananas time.
While I thought that I was abandoned it seems there were other things at play, like healing and creating the new pathway I was destined to walk.

Meanwhile….

Time out means time to reflect. While I may not have understood the method or the destination I did take note of the messages. I was not abandoned by Spirit. The energy of the Spirit world was always around me. I saw and felt this constantly. Journalling is very good for reflection.
Synchronicity - I saw energy flow everywhere - right time, right place - seemingly by accident (it’s never by accident). To me this is always a sign that I am guided and loved. I never questioned or tried to work it out, I just Know that when I see a sign I’m on track.
Special friends - I kept close only those that supported me and respected me - My Tribe. It’s important to find your tribe.
My healing and reading work, really any work that keeps you grounded - this never left me. Whether I am working or not, I am enveloped in the love and power of Spirit.
I followed my intuition, not my instincts (There is a difference and I will discuss this in a future blog) - sometimes I was a little foggy but I showed myself compassion and took my time. Eventually I got the message.
I used the mantra of Ho’Oponono and the vibrational healing of Solfeggio toning. This kept me grounded.

Voluntarily surrendering hope, Resignation, acceptance that there is nothing more you can do other than give up, Leaving a relationship and knowing that even if leaving does not solve anything you are not going back, No matter what you have sacrificed, or tried to change, things are never going to work, Abandoning your dreams, Leaving the past behind, abandoning or relinquishing hope.
The abandonment must be heartfelt to be successful

The end of something that has been lived out, A cycle has ended and you are on the threshold of a new cycle, Time out before the next life event, Allowing things to end, Mourning and letting go of your old life so you can enter your next life free from unfulfilled feelings, Limbo

A sacrifice for a greater good, Time out, Time is suspended, Giving up the power of the conscious mind to gain greater knowledge of the Spirit world, Sacrifice as an act of faith, The unconscious mind, Timing is not quite right to move forward, Being held up and waiting for time to pass before you are released

I am ALWAYS working on my self awareness.
Self Awareness is the only thing that reveals the power of Spirit within.

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In My Next Life

10/2/2020

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My next life….
I’ve had many incarnations this lifetime. Life is circles within circles, just like the journey of The Fool in the Tarot and the stories of the suits of the Minor Arcana. I’d like to share with you the wonderful story of how I ended up travelling and how keeping focused on your dreams does actually work.
It was 2002 and I was working at a festival with a friend, doing readings and loving the vibe of the music around me. It was the very first time I had put myself out in a public place to do readings. Sure, I’d done plenty at home and within my circle of friends but this was the next stage of committing to the work of Spirit. I had a full time job at the time, family responsibilities and doing readings, healings and meditation classes were the things that kept me in touch with my Spirit Nature. I loved it!! After some initial nerves I was right into the swing of it. It was this weekend that showed me the power of healing you can bring with readings and connecting with people in a wider community. I decided on that very weekend that I when I retired I would get a campervan, travel the country, follow the music festivals and take my show (readings and healings) on the road. It was one of those bliss moments you never forget. When the power of the spirit world connects with your heart on a cellular level and you just know your true purpose. I’ve had many of those moments along the way and they have never steered me wrong.
But I was a long way from retirement….
And I had a family to look after. I didn’t abandon the dream, I knew one day it would be a reality. What happened from that day on was that every decision I made was based on that outcome, I just didn’t know at the time.
A lot of life happened in the mean time, some great, some not so great and I had nearly forgotten the dream. I was at one of the lowest parts of my life just recently and that dream came back to me, at just the right time. Spirit gave me a nudge, it was time to put this plan into place.
Talk about creating your reality….
The thing with insights and dreams and such is they require action and choices at the right time. Sure there is fear but if you listen with your heart, fear will recede and faith will propel you forward. It was exactly the right time to begin making plans to travel but where did I start. So many paths to follow, so many things to consider. I did tie myself in knots wanting to get it right, as you do. So I began to try to control.
Guess what happens when you try to control your dreams….
You get shut down, you get knocked over, you get stuck. I like to think that these days I’m better at getting out of my own way but I still try to control the narrative to some degree. So, I paused, took a breath and I stopped the struggle. I waited for the opportunities. Sometimes it’s not about forcing an issue, more that you are ready for the opportunities. The power of spirit gets you ready to step through the door when the opportunity arrives, with no fear. That is called life, that is why self awareness is so important.
Getting out of your own way…
In the end, I found the campervan of my dreams, I live the life I’ve always dreamed of and the bonus (yes, often when you surrender to the power of spirit there is a bonus) I met someone to travel with. I am having adventures I would never have been able to do on my own and I am living beyond what I ever could have conceived. That is the power of surrendering to spirit.

This power is available to everybody….
It’s not easy following your heart, it requires giving up what you think you know and surrendering to the flow of the Universe. It requires Self Awareness so that you can discern when and what is your TRUTH. Everybody has their own path and way of finding that path. For me, I found true purpose the minute I began to meditate, the first spiritual book I read (The Celestine Prophecies) the time I picked up my first deck of Tarot Cards (The Mythic Tarot) , the first crystal I tuned into (a beautiful clear quartz necklace), the first healing I participated in, the first (of many) teacher I listened to. I have hundreds of personal stories about how the power of spirit changed everything for me. If this way of living resonates with you then I encourage you to follow it, you won’t be disappointed.

Recommendations…

Read books about other peoples experiences, this helps you see what is possible
Find your tribe, whether it is a local meditation group or an online community. Being with likeminded people really helps build your self confidence.
Practice. Find a way to do what you love. It does not have to be anything professional or measured. Immerse yourself in your creative self, surprise yourself.
Go to courses, learn new things.
Very important, learn about yourself. Self Awareness is THE MOST important job/career/vocation you could ever have. Meditation is good for this.
Meditation gives you insights. Being alone with your thoughts and being ok with being alone with your thoughts is priceless.

With Love, Vicki xx

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The Conscious Mystic

February 23rd, 2020

In My Next Life

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