Working as a psychic and healer does not make me spiritual, living my faith makes me spiritual and I think one of the toughest lessons was the opening of my heart. I lived more honestly and the path towards self awareness became much easier.
The Closed Heart is not something I was aware of, not until the opening commenced. Someone once said to me the depth of grieving is in direct relation to the depth of the love one felt for the other. The depth of the pain when visiting the trauma is also equal to the magic of the opening.
In time and as is the case when you do this work, the clients I was seeing were presenting with similar stories. And again I am reminded of some wisdom a teacher once said. We do not have the same stories but we share the same emotions. While we share the same emotions the suffering is relative to the experience, there is no big or small here. As I worked with my clients I witnessed the energy of spirit healing the trauma and bring peace. However, there were some exceptions. Some clients would be having great results but in time returning with the same story from a different life event and I noticed there was an emerging pattern of behaviour.
I started to have some doubts about the methods I used so I meditated, connected to Spirit and asked the questions of my guides. In time I was shown the inner working for each Soul, what it meant for my clients and I had some insight for my own self as well (love it when that happens).
Let me preface the next part with a little explanation about my methods. When I am given insight to a particular condition it is shown to me in a way that I can relate to. This in turn allows me to give some peace of mind to my clients as I can describe it in a way that makes it relatable.
The closed heart does not know it is closed, not closed in the sense of not working, more there was a protective case surrounding it. You don’t know about this because over time you adjust your behaviour to fit the protection. When you have healed enough to feel safe enough to feel again, something will happen to activate the heart and your feelings. Those feelings can come slowly or they can spill out so quickly that it is difficult to catch your breath. It is the spill that brings people to me for guidance. I see the beauty of the spill, the perfection of the opening and the compassion for the confusion. The heart connects to love for another and the picture I see in their aura is one of an explosion. A hole where the heart chakra sits which is so destructive that it cannot be repaired. This is the beauty I see. The client is so ready for love that they must have the heart opened in such a way that they cannot close it down again. I was shown, by Spirit, that this is by design. It is difficult because in most circumstances a new relationship cannot move forward. Either or both parties are in relationships, one or both parties are still living their trauma and are not able to give their attention fully at this moment or the other party is playing hot and cold with the client and causing confusion. These examples are the most common and there are many more ways which all lead to the same place. The heart is open, the feelings are spilling over and the feelings of ecstasy and sorrow ebb and flow. It is not pleasant and I personally used to think how unfair it was (my victim at play).
The perfection is the method applied by your own soul. It is designed so that you must access your deepest wisdom to bring balance back to your life. You are kept in discomfort so you will seek the perfect way back to your higher self and thus continue your soul journey.
The compassion comes when I see you as a client you are lost in the beauty of this perfect emotion you are feeling. The first time you feel the explosion it is pure and amazing, you want that all the time but that is not possible. It is designed to bring your attention to your own needs and the generating of the power you need to live your best life and find the love that truly loves you heart and soul. It is that simple.
My work consists of helping the client understand this. They may perceive the other party as their forever person because it was this person that woke the dormant heart. Unless each person is clear to pursue the relationship, it is never destined to continue. You were brought together for this specific purpose, that is all. Once you have mastered your emotions, you will find the relationship you need to evolve as the beautiful soul you are.
So, this is what I have observed and if the above resonates, you might just be in one of these next situations…
These are some examples of situations you may find yourself in when the closed heart is activating again. The Self feels uncomfortable and constantly searches for ways to satisfy the feelings or shut them down again. Neither will happen, you learn, or should I say relearn, to love. The heart lives in it’s true power and makes choices for your souls highest good. That is the gain here.
You can experience the cycle of love and loss many times. It is not always a one off experience. In these times you gain such strong self awareness of what love is for you that your life becomes pure joy, even during the down times. The active or open heart is one of the strongest allies you can have, it is where true compassion is lived.
Past Life Regression
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The Soul knows the perfect relationship you need for your growth. There are many common patterns I see with those who are experiencing this disruption and I am going to discuss some of these over the next couple of weeks.
The Sensitive Heart
Have you ever experienced that moment where you realise you are in a relationship that is going nowhere? In that moment do you move away from it and cut your losses? No, you double down and hang in there, waiting for it to get better. It never does though, does it? This I call the perfection of the sensitive heart. Your heart recognises another heart that shares your possibilities, your dreams and potential. You meet a kindred spirit. The reflection also shows you common struggles and pain. It is through this connection that you realise, in your heart, that healing of your past is possible. The relationship becomes the anchor for the Soul to expand and grow and it is glorious. We see the beauty of our future and strive with all our heart to attain that.
When the relationship has served its purpose it begins to degrade but the sensitive heart clings to the dream, the possibilities of the other heart. They can psychically sense the other heart, know what is possible, stay and wait for them to realise it too, forgive the other hearts bad behaviour and reward that bad behaviour with loving patience. All because the hearts are in constant connection. They communicate in a different language. What the sensitive heart fails to recognise, though, is the human behaviour. We are born with all this beautiful potential and the opportunities to realise them. The Soul brings us together to help each other reach that potential. If each of you use this time together for this growth, you move forward together. If only one heart grows, one must leave the other behind in order to evolve. This is heartbreaking for the sensitive heart. Most times the only way to end the suffering is to make the break.
I have experienced so much heartbreak in my own lifetime that the trauma will still rise and catch me off guard. I struggled with the concepts of how could this be good for my growth when it seems so damaging to my psyche. In the past that trauma did define me, it became my story. However, I slowly began to realise how damaging this victim behaviour is to the Soul. Once I became conscious of this behaviour I went through a process of blaming myself then blaming “the other”, angry with myself then angry with “the other” and finally I surrendered to the perfect process it was.
I see a lot of clients when there is disruption within their relationships and I must admit, in the past, I was caught in my own emotional responses. I had to be careful that they did not influence the readings and healings. I certainly felt empathy with them and it was through these sessions that I slowly began to comprehend the beauty in the process of connection and separation. It is the perfect opportunity to really know ourselves…when we are courageous enough to live in our sensitive heart. Our vulnerability becomes our greatest strength and being vulnerable is not being weak, it is being honest. You cannot experience suffering when you are living your truth so utilise your relationships to understand and accept your true self.
We do our best Soul growth within relationships. Our relationships reflect us. I am talking about all types of relationships, love, friendship, family, pets and even the one off chats with random people we meet within our day…all relationships. Relationships are the only way we can evolve our Soul. Even if it looks like you are moving backwards, attracting people with the same behaviour patterns or same personalities, you are moving forward. It’s incremental, but it is still growth. As I’ve discussed in previous blogs, we do attain the conscious awareness we need to make effective decisions for ourselves, eventually.
When it is happening it makes no sense, of course, and when I am working with them I am always looking for common triggers, responses and patterns. It is very difficult for them to be detached in the moment and that is why a Psychic Reading and Past Life Regression are perfect.
Past Life Regression
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