Sometimes inspirational signs or writing come along at just the right time…
They make me stop and think about my own world view. Once upon a time I would fear my negative thoughts. I was very afraid they would have an immediate effect and my energy, my Soul, my aura would all be tainted. I was in constant fear I would push my spiritual development backwards. I fought hard to make myself more forgiving, compassionate and grateful.
Do you know what happened?…
I ended up keeping the terrible people and damaging situations close by until I was able to heal the uncomfortable feelings. Pfftt, never going to happen. I was trying to control others rather than looking honestly at myself. I finally realised that keeping the damaging people and situations close by was doing the very thing I was trying to avoid. I was crippling myself, physically, mentally and spiritually.
So, I went back to the drawing board…
I put down the books I was reading. (which is where a lot of misinformation was coming from). I let go of the teachers and mentors that kept me in a state of fear (it was in their best interests to victimise others to feel power). I talked to my guides, I communed with my Soul, my inner wisdom, found more compassionate teachers and discovered my own path.
Which was lucky because…
One day I was in a situation where I could not reconcile my circumstances and the damaging negative thoughts came thick and fast. I was hating the people who had power over me. They were using their positions of power to bully me and no amount of compassion, forgiveness or gratitude brought a resolution. I was more terrified of my negative thoughts than the bullies. The affirmations, protective bubbles and loving thoughts were useless, plus pushing the thoughts down was making me physically sick. I am an adaptor. If I find myself in a difficult relationship or job, I adapt. People who are psychic, sensitive, empathic know what I’m talking about. We know how to read the room and we think we can control the room. Before you know it, you are floored.
I needed a new strategy…
I remember a distant healing technique I’d learned and I adapted it to this situation. I created an energy vortex coming from my crown chakra and sent my thoughts, all the ugly ones, to the Spirit world. Effectively, I had surrendered my need to control the bullies and let the energy of Spirit do the heavy lifting on this one. It worked a treat.
So what happened?…
As in all situations where I have felt this powerless, the Universe was reminding me it was time to move on. So, I surrendered the whole situation, the way forward was revealed to me and all I had to do was step into the opportunities that magically turned up. A lot was taken out of my hands and the best possible outcome occurred.
I still had to make the decisions and take responsibility for those decisions but with the power of Spirit backing me, the way was crystal clear. I moved on from the job, money came from all angles and opened up the opportunity to work as a psychic and healer full time. My dream job.
So here’s the verse, attributed to Lao Tzu, I came across that gave words to this process.
Watch your thoughts, they become your words.
I’ll say it again…
YOU GET TO CHOOSE. How fabulous is that. Life is not out of your hands, it is your life, not Spirits, not your teachers or gurus, and definitely not your friends and family.
One last point. Forgiveness, Gratitude and Compassion are not things you can make yourself do. Sometimes you are in a place where you need to feel unforgiving, angry and selfish in order to move into a more healing heart space. Forgiveness, Gratitude and Compassion are states of being, not doing. You evolve into these states and act without a second thought. When I hear someone say to me they must be more forgiving when they’re clearly angry or I’m don’t like this situation but I’m grateful for the experience or I must be more compassionate then put treat themselves as if they don’t matter, I remind them that these feelings of anger, resentment and shame must be expressed so they may move forward. If you do not experience the so called “negative” feelings you will never know Forgiveness, Gratitude or Compassion in their fullness. They wait for you on the other side.
I absolutely recommend using the exercise of the Crown Chakra Vortex as a way of transmuting your troubling thoughts. Or, you could use the Morning Pages which I have up on my website, just CLICK HERE for the link.
Insights I have gathered from my life experiences. Profound messages from my connection with Spirit.